Today I have regained some of me, today is today and there wont ever be a day like it again. So this got me thinking about days , then weeks, then months, then years, and that every year Everyone always says " this year just flew by".
Its true and I seem to get confused in my head that I am not 14 anymore and that I am creeping ever so close to 40....CAN YOU BELIEVE THIS!!!
Some may say get over it we all grow old.. responsibilities and blah, blah,blah....
But.... I can't keep up.......I can not keep up with my age...MY body does but my brain just gets so lost.
I want to hang on to time... I want to physically slow it down.....I want somehow to spin more time so I can catch my breath and make sense of where I am.
So heres a drawing I started on sunday afternoon at the nearby lake. I finished it today and its basically me (the spider) spinning more time by reaching my web to objects and special things that happened that day. Father and son were out in the boat, me and Mana were making splashes and collecting, what we thought was a dead dragonfly actually came back to life. So here it is escaping my web to fly free again. It was floating upside down in the tiny waves seemingly dead. The tannin stained leaves that turned midnight black became candles in sand cakes. The little pebbles that ingrained them selves in gathering paterns along the shore line are all now trapped in my web catching sketch and this is how I am learning to spin more time.